just gunna start writing here more…

morning coffee decided to share my musings

about what, everything

lol i was looking through my old posts and rereading some things and the evolution of knowledge or wisdom or both from experiences in my life is ridic

lol but cool

like yeah ive learnt a lot, i feel like i see the whole picture now

completion

i also learnt my direction

where i wanna go

travel

letting go of the past

and its a big ttransformation

lots of shit is dying

sters healthy so thats all that matters

but yeah, theres such a weight when i put my fingers on the keyboard on what to write, theres so much where do i start

thats why im gunna start posting these here, i usually journal but its on my google drive and who knows maybe a book one day lol but yeah pouring into the vision,

taking the vision and bringing it to life,

overwhelming how much i live in my mind lol

i find it difficult to speak to people because i dont have anyone like me around, or there iam blaming others lol

to certain degrees people and i connect but like the real truth of energetics and the vibe, and then i settle and it feels like when the high emotions fade away im left with this feeling of disconnect because we dont connect in any other way(i was rereading my codependency post and this is that too like breaking this addiction really is what it is)

and the experiences have been me trying to summon the energy from the other person to give me what im missing lol

so yeah imagine what you want, it was a blast…………….. but i got some lessons

and learnt i did, like i felt this culmination of all relationshipo sive ever had come to a point where i just forgave and got closure, energetically

took myself back

even from childhood, like just a lot of worth that i just felt i didnt have from a young age and so i keptmy cup emoty and abandonned myself inthe process

looking externally for something that was me, is me

glad to have came full circle, i def feel stronger this time around, obviously with the evolution of my website and stuff and all the ideas im coming up with feels really prosperous and so that is a nice reminder in the grey days and emotional waves of release

the present is all we have, this year im gunna really focus on spending more time in the present, but also releasing starving myself from what i truly want because of whatever reason my brain comes up with lol

so then its more balanced

tired of the high highs and low lows

bodys tired lol

i can feelthe momentum for sure

energetically my body has been lit the fuck up lately

i feel everything, super aware, but also feeeling like something happening its kinda like with the emotional release its been a lot of back and forth and with that i feel like its almost the feeling of looking over your shoulder in case someone is behind you, and i just have that feeling like wtf but it could also be because my entire life is starting new and new foundations and new energies

awareness'

i gotta walk ster more lol psa

i do that now, thanks for chatting

have the best day ever