the mirror

perception of reality

we percieve our reality through our body and mind and our consciousness attached to it

our brain:

In other words, the human body sends 11 million bits per second to the brain for processing, yet the conscious mind seems to be able to process only 50 bits per second. It appears that a tremendous amount of compression is taking place if 11 million bits are being reduced to less than 50.

i knew it was a crazy number lol

so our conscious mind - the mind that knows how to drive, go to work, do your schedule, be productive lol or like how it should be productive - the ego

only takes in 50 bits - a bit is binary digit

so one piece of information

Caltech researchers have quantified the speed of human thought: a rate of 10 bits per second. However, our bodies' sensory systems gather data about our environments at a rate of a billion bits per second, which is 100 million times faster than our thought processes.

so we are being flooded with information

and we have a system in our brains that filters out information and categorizes it

the rest is what we become unconscious to in our waking realities - while we are living in the conscious mind

the little miracles

we are not used to

in relation to other people

this is the mirror

that shines the light in the dark

which is funny as humans being a communal species so they technically need eachother to piss eachother off so we can see these parts of ourselves lol which is twisted and sick lol oh life - and love on the other end

and to love eachother deep enough to uncover these parts

so we have so much more capacity in our brains and in our lives, if we are to allow our conscious mind to step aside once in awhile

we put our ego in the other room, as one of my teachers says

and the ego has a bad connotation in some sense but all it is is the part of the human the consciously is aware of themselves, the decision maker, the consciousness

thats what separates animals and humans,

the ego

so when we allow our ego to take a step aside, and we go into the expanse of what can be, all that is

we get a little weary, its a weird feeling because the ego likes to have all the i’s dotted and t’s crossed, its main goal is your safety

and i feel like society has kinda built these constructs that have copletely disconnected a lot of people from their body

and its what humanity is dealing with i believe in my heart, but to certain degrees

because in our wholeness we live in abundance

so its a balance, coming into your body again

after dissociating for sometimes years

its weird to feel such strong emotions in your body being thrown around up and down

and your brain going in every direction wondering wtf is it protecting us from

learning to trust what voice is for you and what voice is against you

the saviour and the sabateur

and when we start to feel more comfortable coming into our bodies again

it can feel uncomfortable because the reason we left our bodies is because of not wanting to feel the emotion

and closing off

and this happens in instances through out the day

something makes you uncomfortable and you just blip

the consciousness leaves your body and you are no longer connected

it can be unconscious as well

it can happen in big and small ways all through life

and we learn these ways we hop out of ourselves when we experience life

when something happens to us

when we have a reminder or memory

it can cause dissociation

leaving my house some days cause this lol

anger for me is a big one when i sense im disociating because im taking myself farther away from myself and what im feeling because its contradiictory usually

and paralysis

when i just sit and do nothing lol because i dont wanna push through

these are all signs the body is sending us

but that disconnect also disconnects us from our intuition

intuition for me is soft at first and gets bigger

trauma for me is intense at first and then i fizzle and feel kinda deflated

but either spectrum i believe if we are not emotionally aware of ourselves

that is feeling impulses in the body and understanding their language -

which in and of itself is such a hard task because we only have the words that we know lol so really it can be felt and expressed

ooh yeah expression

that can be disconnected also

when its like we come off in certain ways to others and it triggers

or someone comes off to us and we kinda stink at it you know

this is our body telling us something

but its all freedom of expression and its interesting witnessing everyone and how they use that freedom

were all so different

and its all valid

for me what helps is working with an energy healer

and they hold a safe container for me to feel and just be with these painful emotions

and when youre in the presence of someone who you feel safe around, its almost like the flood gates open up and its like intense

this may be broad but thhis is how it has shown in my life recently

so when our ego is in control, thinking its doing its job, yet we are disociated from our bodys impulses and language, we are not connected to our truth

and our truth is the path of happiness in our lives

its different for each of us and thats why its so special when you meet someone you connect with because when youre in your truth, you find others in theirs

where as when you are disconnected it comes out and can really bit you in the ass

and all this is normal, unfortunately in ways, but these are just my musings today

so when in relation to other people, this can be in any sense of relation - work, home, friends, etc

we have conscious situations in life where we are just doing our thing

we are not thinking about what is actyally going on we are on auto pilot

and with that thats where the connection would really benefit lol

like the connection of body and mind

i have fpound in my life the things i have felt shittiest over doing, were when i was uncontrolled in my emotions and experiencing a traumatic flashback

and then we come down

and the come down for me, im alone, in my truck driving or in bed and i can unpack things

its something that ive just been raised with i dealt with a lot of things on my own

and the come down is awakening where the times its like “fuck why did i say that” lol you know

thats the mirror for me

its when we see both sides and how i came off and the other person came off

kinda balances the scales

brings acceptance

and that mirror teaches us where we want to alter certain habits you know next time around

then we can process the situation, so we bring in love always accept the sotuation, yourself, where youre at and bring in love,

and say you know if it really bothers you say something about it tomo, use that energy transmute the negative and turn it positive, im going to say something so it doesnt eat away inside me

so it creates abbrasion, is coming to mind lol, when in relationship where emotions are present

triggers are present

when we interact with certain energies consciously

but we also learn a lot and can use these times to see the reflection in the mirror

what are we being guided towards seeing within ourselves

what can we learn about ourselves to set ourselves up better next time

slowing down to open the pathways of the subconscious we can rip apart so to speak the tendons and control that hold us in certain patterns, unconsciously too

living fulltime in the body

all the time

because trauma can distort “reality” or our perception

it can harm the egos identity and create defenses

these defenses are built to protect us

from harm and from experiencing the trauma we had felt in life

these come up for me in a lot of different ways, how other percieve me is a big one and i guess how i percieve others lol the mirroring

so ive been actively working on how to align these connections within myself

so i can be authentic inside, and outside

i feel like healing for me at first was totally blind faith, and still is i guess

its gotten weirder lol definitely with the more life kinda wizens me

and yet i am wizer even though i feel the most lost i have ever felt lol and yet im all at the same time more grounded than ive ever been

lol like wtf

if youre still here reading, buckle up because we have more lol

so i wanna tie all this back into energy healing

because thats what i do!!!!

yay!!

lol

but what is energy healing?

we all have an energetic frequency

ill use me as an example

i have a hard time trusting people,

and that perception of me is that i cant be trusted

its flipped right

from my experience at least lol

when im actually a lvery loyal and trustworthy person i am just solitary in a lot of ways and

i have experienced traumatic experiences regarding trust so that energetic frequency follows me

it is in my energetic frequency and thats where ill have experiences regarding that

this is just one instance too like this comes in so many ways shapes and forms in life

all these patterns and fractals of life

so that energetci frequency is emotion

all emotion is

is energy in motion

e-motion

and that emotion if not felt and when i say felt, i started thinking about that yesterday

its like we have to process trauma

we have to be able to not only feel the experience but also accept what happened, complete the cycle so to speak, to release, and it comes in stages right, like accept some, live on, some more comes up, accept it a little more or alotta more lol

and there are tons of different trauma release techniques out the yang but i also feel like it comes around when its time lol

thanks astrology

our brain is what holds on to it - trauma

it cannot compute

it cannot bring loving awareness in because it doesnt understand and cant process, or accept in the current paradigm because its too much or you know were protecting this sadness

so it gets stuck

and the emotion stays

the energy stays

for however long lol

so when we release this energy/emotion we are actually expanding our consciousness because we are witnessing and bareing a deeper part of self

allowing that energy to flow again

thats healing

and thats what shifts our frequencies

when we release we then visualize unconditional love and healing, new visions for the future and better feelings - feelings of joy, laughter happiness, whatever you want to feel instead

and sit with that

to what can be possible

to open our perspectives

open our awareness to life

OUR DREAMS

woops lol

our realities

the what can be

too going back to the ammount of information we take in

i do believe with internet and videos and things that are speeding up our attention spans

it can be beneficial also for human consciousness in ways

where it can also suck because we are speeding up a very intricate computer and what is that computer running on you know

but if we have a fast computer with good programs, healthy computer lol

then thats positive for people in general

but alas the battle of light and dark

lol what does this all mean

lol dang what a time to be alive…

anyways, when we remove energetic imprints of trauma on ourselves

we expand through experiencing our hard times, we expand to hold and fit oursleves in our container (body)

we open to new amazing possibilities in the direction of joy and abundance as well because of the law of duality, with every death there is a rebirth metaphorically

i’ll probably keep adding to this post lol, lots of ideas still come through

what to add and what i forgot lol

ooxx

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