creating foundation from our pain/wounds/trauma

so i feel in my journey here on earth that its been interesting to try and understand to philosiphy lol what the fuck is going on here and why am i here why am i experiencing this shit what the fuck is going on here its has lead me on my healing journey

my needing to know why

because like okay were human we do these things but like why

theres so much better more awesome shit we could be doing and why are we suffering

its lead me down this whole rabbit hole of wonderings of what the fuck

what is this fuckery we are all believeing

and not only believing but like what the fuck are we all going through??

like most humans are suffering

we are in peril

the majority of humans have shitty living environments

and im just like channeling here this is not facts lol

but like just to get a point across, i really wonder wtf is going on here most days

and its put me in like shitty situations where i dont know why i feel like shit but i just do and theres so many labels of like oh your a lightworker your an empath your this your that

its like no i think that life is just kinda shitty right now and our responsibility as a collective is to move in the direction of change and better

just overall better for humans

so like yeah, with trauma and shit, we all have it to some degree

some feel more some experience more

there is no judgement or scale for your hurt and trauma that anyone can give you,

you give it to yourself and then the urge to change that number for whatever reason (1-10 trauma scale type thing) that is the belief that you hold that it wasnt that bad

thats what stops you from feeling the full emotion of it

so like yeah id say my worst years were 0-30 lol so its only up from here

but like honestly id say it was a 10 that was the first number

the amount of like ridiculue, uncomfortable situations, just like what the fuckness

was at its peak

by far

but to really feel that and to acknowledge ourselves

recognize ourselves for the pain we went throigh

love ourselves through our mistakes

accept the truth of all situations

the truth being both sides and the godly perspective of learning what it taught us and why we xperienced it

becaue we are never given something that we cant handle or something that cant teach us something greater about the depths of our own consciousness and soul which is what were here to expand

so i believe that with those foundations

i look at foundations of like a table

4 legs

so my founadtions i have built is

love

honesty

integrity

recognition/acceptance

and thats what im using as a foundation to build my life

through the trauma

i will always love myself throuigh it

i will always be honest with myself about myself and about others with myself and others

i will always haave integrity where if i say something i do it, not without error or without grace and compassion but i will always balance the scales and have integrity in myself in how i act, i stand behind and beside myself in all situations

and recognition and acceptance i like because torecognize myself in beauty and ugliness i have been able to really understand whats going on in my life and what my life is trying to tteach me. acceotance because it isnt always easy to recognize the good and bad. but then to recognize others and their pains their mishaps and their traumas is helpful because it takes a village to raise a kid or whatever lol like were all supposed to helping eachother. to recognize the pain in someone else is to recognize the pain in myself, and i belieev vice versa happens when you do that, others recognize your pain and its a positive reaction.

but other side of the coin too, not everyone recognizes and its a cycle that continues, and with that then the acceptance is that okay then go on your own path and we have to accept that we cant help this person any longer.and it goes both ways also. and it always comes back to self.. always, its always inside of us, we always have th power to change our realities and our experiences but we have to look within

its science, quantum physics

its hard and oits why not a lot of people do it

but yeah and then love again

just becaue were all human, we are raised in a society that shuns differences from a religiously indoctrinated control tactic years and years before we were even born that told us good and bad right from wrong and took literally all our creatvie abilities and then just continusously stuck systems in our faces for generations keeping us in line

so to say that we have some trauma, yeah as humans…theres lots lol and still continuse to evolve right so we have to evolve with it

and how ive found to do that is energy healing and little things like this

our brain loves to feel safe,

labelling and compartmentalizing feels safe

but with a lot of this shit that aint gunna work

its illogical

its emotional

and it has to be felt

and itll pass, and youll feel better

xo