romanticizing chaos
what is energetic transmutation?
alchemy
for my definition it would be the balancing of energies perhaps
justice
karma and the balancing of karma
releasing the charge by seeing both sides
its turning negative experiences and seeing the positive
accepting the situation for what it is
balancing of light and dark, within ourselves
sometimes it hides from us
but it will come around
and take us for a spin
the emotional wave of realization
and to see ourselves in such a vulnerable light
and love ourselves anyways
is alchemization
returning the favour is alchemization
being objective in a situiation and detaching to see the divine purpose and meaning behind it
why is alchemization important?
because if we have a build up of shit and its like a shit damn inside us lol
like a closet with the doors closed and shit poking out everywhere and ready to burst its like pulsing and a monster is pushing against it and its like one wrong move and that puppies exploding
lol
we dont have as much space to create what we want
energetically
unpack
i think god steps in in a lot of ways and shows us when the time is right too
and we are given the choice to feel or to repress
i dont know its a weird feeling lol
allowing balance to happen
since energy is never created nor destroyed
it transmutes and alchemizes
or witnessing balance
whilst being used to chaos lol
thriving under pressure
without any knowledge of it happening lol
or any tangible evidence of it being chaotic
perhaps these wounds we carry
are superpowers in disguise lol
thinking about chaos lol
my nervous system is very much used to it
where does chaos even stem from? a lack of stability? grounding?
accepting a situation
accepting myself
it was a big cycle, whatever it was
obviously our brains grow with us through these experiences and so we have created a network of pathways that keeps us in that same loop
so the start i imagine is emotional
then its rewiring neuropathways to more serving beliefs
i woke up thinking about - okay so im turning my life into a really interesting book lol if life has meaning and purpose then i am going to romanticize it because it feels a lot better lol to think of it as a book im writing rather than the shit show it can be percieved as
but yeah i woke up this morning and was thinking about leviathan angels
okay so i havent really any knowledge on it
i woke up and was thinking about leviathan angels so im researching them
One thought is that the Leviathan was a primordial creature that god slew to create heaven and earth from the chaos of the cosmic sea. This is similar to Tiamat's tale. Basically, there were a lot of old, creative powers of Chaos that the Hebrew god defeated during his creation.
https://mythsterhood.com/parallels-order-vanquishing-chaos-in-dragon-slaying-mythology/
so the chaos we are put through during the creation process
whatever we are creating
interesting
like alchemization for said creation to occur or be born
"My brother intended them to be the perfect protectors of safeguarding His creations, however, their voracious and insatiable hunger got the better of them."
— Death talking about the Leviathans to the Winchester Brothers and the Singers
The Leviathans are a race of ancient monsters that were created after the Archangels, making them the second living species in existence. They predate younger angels, human souls, or other living creatures.
Like some of God's earliest creations, Leviathans are very powerful beasts, more powerful than most other creatures and capable of killing and / or eating just about anything else. It is remarkable that, despite the status of leviathans much older than angels and their ability to kill celestials with relative ease, leviathans have not yet demonstrated any form of magical or psychic abilities other than escape in Purgatory. Leviathans are also capable of exterminating all demons, as claimed by Dick Roman - a claim that forced the demon Crowley to flee and organize his demons against animals. Even angels are powerless against the Leviathans. This makes them unique as they are capable of defeating creatures that possess far more abilities than they possess.
that first line really gets me
their insatiable hunger lol
got the better of them
im like dang that classifies a lot of issues not only for me but in society
this insatiable hunger, i spoke about in the blog post regarding lust and addiction
its interesting that that insatiable hunger can be for anything
money, sex, power, domination, an emotional need
it can be innocent but im just trying to learn and visual the underworld here lol
like that must connect with addiction
just putting pieces together
i feel like that was a cycle
like overcoming this insatiable hunger to succeed
in my life
at all means necessary i didnt really notice it
but i also see it in others
and in my life where ive been “taken down” so to speak lol
Shapeshifting: Through physical contact with just a bit of DNA, leviathans can instantly transform their host into that person's shape, becoming the person they are in contact with. They can also use hair instead of physical contact to assume a person's identity. They can also mimic the specific clothes of a human being, making it even easier to impersonate people. They can still transform into creatures of different species, such as vampires. However, they cannot copy prophets. Sometimes they are unable to copy a person's skills to the fullest. Leviathan are also unable to copy other leviathans.
lol which i found was interesting as i can see myself and past instances in situations as such
before we see the power in ourselves
we witness power in others
and the insatiable hunger starts
but its also being played out in society right now with the ST charges flying around and now all this under the table dark shit is really being exposed
its all just energy
that inhabits the energetic field and vibration
to teach us a lesson or to give greater knowledge of ourselves and our own desires?
its like a veil
how i see it like a game that is played in the evolution of humanity
but i found it interesting through the journey of health because there are external forces and energies that we kinda pick up but are not aware of
or perhaps since they are the second creation, they have been apart of us all along
i have just been programmed to look away from any bad
lol stay in the light which doesnt serve fyi
i thinnk thats kinda societal norms type shit obv
its easy to think great about ourselves and see the darkness in others but what we are manifesting is an energetic imprint of ourselves so its like the snake eating its tail
but the stories we hear and how connected we are in society and the law of divine oneness we are all experiencing this play out in reality
harley quinn also came up recently where i have never watched the movie actually lol but the story sounds similar to my life in ways
Harley quinn is a psychologist who falls in love with her patient
And gets into an abusive codependent realtonship with him
She thought she could catch him and cure him and bring him back to humanity
wanting to help someone so she sacrifices herself
its the easiest sacrifice here take my good shit lol
i get it
and its loose boundaries lol
but trauma makes them bounadires loose
so its almost like we gotta experience it to strengthen the boundary? im not sure, trying to figure that out
the energetic exchange of energy lol
since its never destroyed
only transmuted or alchemized
all these stories ive never watched or read are coming up and painting my life into a story others have also experienced
its just cool to witness and to feel acceptance in some sort of way
or like okay im not alone, i belong lol
other people are doing this shit heres the reason
like a child
reparenting lol
dealing with different energies
being able to decipher different energies and combat them perhaps lol
like internally within
lessen the effects they can have
externally
allowing them to show us what theyre searching for
or what we are searching for
due to the insatiable hunger to get there
more about leviathan
After his fall, Leviathan became a demon of darkness and chaos and a leader of Hell mentioned in the Book of Enoch. Leviathan is one of Lucifer's arms and one of the "faces of the Devil" in Christianity. He is also the representation of sin, envy.
Leviathan is a tamer of beasts, a beast collector and an excellent strategist, for his teacher was Uriel, the angel of wisdom.
the battle of light and dark lol
understanding these aspects in ourselves
knowing it comes from the start of humanity lol is not something that we as this human we are today, is creating
interesting
being in a position where i felt for a long time of saving others would ultimately save myself
and i would go to the ends of the earth and then be a broken mess at the end wondering what happened
well i drained myself lol
like i wanted to be saved
its like codependency, the lack of belief in self sees the strength in another to ultimately achieve greatness by taking from the other
and yet when we get it in our paths we have hurts others only to realize it goes away with the person because we havent embodied it within ourselves
or taught ourselves how to embody that version
usually do to uncomfortable shit either to look at or to feel
but yet i am the one saving myself as others are the ones to save themselves
save them from what?
shitty feelings lol usually
the break down of an identity
and to live a more loving life
being a creator
rather than being a slave in the system
wanting to save others from impending doom lol
of themselves LOL
jesus
this strong hold on saving
is far back for me probably others too, with my great grandma immigrating and losing her whole family, saviour complex would be where i know there it had started, not to mention the living conditions previously
i feel this saving comes from a long line generationally of saving others or wanting to be saved ourselves
and it comes off in different ways
i find relationally i can see it in my grandparents relationship and my personal ones where i would have a loose energetic boundary of what i give others
it would flip open wide or locked tight and that was how i was raised
its a love bomb and avoidant cycle really now seeing it on paper
grooming, sincce these words are getting used more and more to describe our experiences its very vast in how we can be groomed
against what we truly want to be
or who we percieve ourselves to be
i was taught to always put my best foot forward and disregard my feelings in public especially
why i enjoy being a lone so much lol
the mask can come off
but it was never malicious
the mask, well it was at times lol but i try my best to stay in the lines of what i believe is right and just
or atleast i wasnt aware of the shadow it can cast for others
which brings me back to the light and dark
it is perspective
there is also a feeling that we are riding on with perspective
is it uncomfortable because its wrong
or is it uncomfortable because were growing
thats all subjective to certain situations obv
and then trusting in others which can be difficult and thats where im learning about judging others but in an energetic sense, observation
rather than blind faith
going against better judgement
it happens so fast in reality
where one second were over here and one choice
were somewhere totally different
so balancing again, and taking the time to slow down before reacting
i mean its not easy lol
but going around and putting your 1000% into every person you meet
with the intention of never being hurt
doesnt fucking work, lol dont try it
i promise you im right on this one
lol just take your time
especially with people
i can see fixing and “knowing better” in realtionships where my grammy ive heard stories do that also
“she was always on kens ass” lol
and yeah i get that
its that insatiable hunger lol
is that insatiable hunger to help another or ourselves
it can turn dark
it can turn controlling
where initially the first instance is to help
but with codependency
limerence
the whole shebang all these words and labels that mean something to everyone
its because growing up and learning in life i would ride my whole life on the shoulders of someone who i trusted
or who i looked up to and thought was who i wanted to be
an idenitty and things i wanted to fill my life with that would make me feel powerful and important
and then that gets translated into partnership
and the translation of that i feel can get weird especially when were talking about dark energies
like i dont know if thats societal where you know youre with one person for the rest of your life and they are the only person you talk to so they better do all the right things because im gunna do all the right things and were gunna go to this spot in life and its gunna be amazing
like okay hop on the train lets go to where im going and you do these things because i know how to get there
like do i actually know??
lol does anyone actually know
lol
like its natural for me lol
and im talking about shapeshifting in ways where a chameleon can kinda morph into their surroundings i feel i can too or i was able to really well as like a defense mechanism or survival tactic
to stay in a group
or to stay protected in a partnership
i can see my life kinda put me in hermit mode where i dont really have anything to rely on right now but myself, but thats enough for me
which is a cool feeling
i dont really know the dynamic all that well yet, these are just my morning musings lol
but these labels codependency, limerence
this holding onto an idea
this image and picture, dream in our minds - of anything
i believe it can be with people where we are in relationship and we see the potential, or even in how we view
but the potential we are seeing is our own ability to accomplish tasks and problems in their life, not their potential and i found that to be awakening and deatching
because the trying aspect, never giving up, keep going, insatiable hunger
we hold on to it and i guess where it can harm, manipulate
just trying to pinpoint all these pieces of info im getting lol
As the Grand Admiral of Hell, Leviathan is a mighty Demon Lord that controls the power of water- and and can command other water-dwelling creatures as familiars
- water = emotions for me
makes sense
Invincibility: Leviathan is one of the most powerful demons in Hell, personifying Envy which is one of the Seven Deadly Sins.
making more turns in this story of life, i wonder if we are all plagued to over come one or more deadly sins in this life lol
life is getting more interesting the more i read about this, i was never really into fantasy i couldnt relate it to real life
until real life got so weird
that i had to take up another hobby of reading fiction because
wtf is this shit type thing lol
like actually though wtf is this shit - life lol the purpose of life
or my life atleast
Chaos Manipulation: Leviathan is often describe as the embodiment of chaos.
Before the War in Heaven, Leviathan was a seraph who served as Uriel's second in command. Enraged that she would often take his accomplishments for herself, he joined Lucifer’s side only to be defeated by his former master. He was then cast out of Heaven into Hell, where his form would be corrupted into that of a terrifying sea serpent.
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its just like does anyone else read this and go like, oh shit!! sounds familiar lol in many times in my life
or this is life
because i sure do lol
channelled download of leviathan angel this am for the win
“I just love these waters! I think I'll make them my own!„— Leviathan.
“Leviathan's the demon of water, said to be one of the oldest Princes of Hell and is the only one that was born a monster. Occult legend said he was born a twin, but grew envious of her and devoured her alive, earning him the ire of God and was damned to Hell because of that.„— Carl Black.
like really though lol
just is like so cool
relating this to real life
ive been the tempted and ive been the hunted
opening the mind to all that is maybe
what is the bigger story here
creation and being on the road to creation what will you encounter
well there will be new levels and new devils
new tempting offers and new demons within to slay lol
the bigger picture
that im personally expereincing
what is this trying to tell me
i guess im in a point right now where im working towards something that im creating
for me the devil has a lot to do with an absent father
the limerence of creating adream image in my mind and chasing that “dream”
insatiable hunger to have my dad in my life
lol and funny enough my grampy and dad both have blue eyes
and my mum and grammy have brown/hazel
its just these pieces of this story im pieceing together of my life
the meaning of my life
it comes from within for sure but it also has its own story before me
that id like to learn
so thats kinda whats happening here lol
is the meaning of life pretty simple and has already played out for millenia or is this actually our life to create
i think both, we just are learning what we’re up against i suppose
or learning the ropes so to speak
as we evolve into ourselves
we learn what energies will help us and hinder us
but in the end if we learn was it all that bad to begin with
i dont know im speaking pretty lightly here
but the energy that we come into a situation with will be the energy that it feeds on/foundations
so what is the intention in your actions
being aware of this will help the outcome
but alas lol we are not always aware of said energies and shit happens lol
and we learn
its all concepts
but yeah
these concepts are cool man
lol have a great day i cant think of anything else at the moment
xx
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